I didn't have children. For decades. I never spoke about what happened in that camp. Not because I wanted to forget, but because no one wanted to hear it. Until 2010, at the age of 86, when I agreed to be interviewed for a project commemorating the forgotten women of World War II.
It was the first and only time I ever told my full story. What I revealed in this interview goes far beyond anything I've shared before. Because what happened to my sisters and our children didn't end in 1945. On the contrary, it was only the beginning. In subsequent episodes of this documentary series, I will reveal secrets that have remained buried for almost 70 years.
Secrets about the true fate of the children born in that camp, about the secret network coordinated by von Steiner, about the day I found something I thought was lost forever. But before we go any further: if my story moves you, if you think stories like mine deserve to be told, please support me by liking this video and leaving a comment below. Because together we create memories, and every voice counts.
I spent the two years after the war ended in a kind of trance. I barely slept. I didn't really live. I existed like an old, yellowed photograph, tucked away in a drawer, never looked at. Aurore returned to Saint-Rémy with me, but she was no longer the same. She spoke very little.
She sat for hours by the window, her hands on her knees, staring at a point only I could see. Sometimes she whispered a name, always the same, the one she gave her son in the few hours she could hold him in her arms. She died in 1947. The doctor diagnosed tuberculosis.
I knew it was pain. I was alone. The villagers looked at me differently, not with pity but with concern, as if I were a living reminder of a past they wanted to forget. France yearned for a new beginning, for reconstruction, for a future. Women like me, who bore the scars of war on their bodies and souls, didn't fit this new image.
So I did what was expected of me. I remained silent. I found work as a seamstress in a workshop in Orléans. I rented a small room above a bakery. I made wedding dresses for women who still believed in fairy tales. At night, I returned home. I ate alone. I fell asleep thinking about my son.
What did he look like now? Was he five? Six? Could he read? Was he afraid of the dark, like I was at his age? Had they told him he was an orphan? Had they lied to him about my identity? These questions tormented me, but I didn't know where to begin. I didn't even know his name. I didn't know which city, which country he had been sent to. But in 1953, everything changed. I received a letter, a simple, unaddressed envelope, from Munich. Inside was a single handwritten sentence in German: "If you wish to know what happened to your son, please come to this address on March 12th at 2:00 p.m.."
I was breathless. My hands were shaking so much that I had to put the letter down on the table to read it again. Who had sent it to me? How had this person known who I was? Was it a trap? But I knew I would go. Despite the danger, despite the shock. On March 12th, 1953, I boarded a train to Munich. For the first time since my return, I left France.
Every kilometer I walked brought back memories I had tried to bury: the uniforms, the orders shouted in German, the smell of the camp. The address I had given was a gray building in a working-class district of Munich. I climbed the stairs to the third floor, my heart pounding so hard I felt like it was about to burst from my chest. I knocked on the door.
A woman in her fifties opened the door. Her gray hair was tied in a bun, her expression stern, but her eyes were gentle. [Music] She stared at me for a long time before saying, "My stone propeller." I nodded. [Music] She led me inside. The apartment was modest but clean. Pictures of children hung on the walls.
She invited me to sit down and poured some tea. Then she spoke: "My name is Greta Hoffman. During the war, I worked as a nurse in Vermarthe. Not by choice, but by necessity. I was assigned to the camp where you and your sisters were. I have an icy sense of humor. I had nothing to do with what happened to you," she continued quickly, "but I witnessed it all, and every day I hated myself for not doing anything."
He stood up and pulled a box from the cabinet. Inside were documents, folders, and lists of names. Fonsteiner kept meticulous records. He wrote down everything: the mothers' names, the children's birth dates, the German families who had taken them in. After the war, these documents were to be destroyed, but I managed to salvage a few.
He handed me a piece of paper; my name was written on it. And just below it, another line: Little child, born June 18, 1943, placed June 20, 1943. Foster family: Adler family. I read that line over and over again until the letters blurred. "He's alive," I whispered. "I don't know," he replied gently. "But now you have a lead." With that folded piece of paper in my pocket, I returned to France and made a decision. I would find him.
No matter how long it took, no matter how many doors I had to knock on. My son existed somewhere, and I wasn't going to die without trying. The search lasted almost twenty years: twenty years of unanswered letters, twenty years of knocking on the doors of the authorities, who looked at me as if I were crazy.
For twenty years, I saved every penny so I could take the train to Germany once or twice a year. The Adler family left Hamburg in 1950. No one knew where, or at least no one wanted to tell me. The 1950s were the most difficult. Europe was rebuilding, forgetting and burying its dead and its secrets with the same efficiency. Archives were destroyed, scattered, and hidden.
Witnesses refused to testify out of fear, shame, and cowardice. I contacted organizations that helped war victims. I sought advice from lawyers, who initially looked at me with pity, then explained that my case was extremely complicated and likely hopeless. I even wrote to the International Red Cross. The response was polite, professional, and completely useless.
The archives were incomplete. Witnesses were either dead or refused to testify. Even postwar Germany wanted to forget. I was just one voice among thousands, one mother among so many others searching for their children lost in the chaos of war. But I couldn't forget. Every night I saw her face again, her closed eyes, her little hands clutching my finger.
I woke up sweating, convinced I heard a child crying. But in my empty room, only silence reigned. I worked as a seamstress, mechanically sewing hems and buttonholes. At night, I wrote letters, requests, petitions. I used dozens of pens and filled entire notebooks with names, addresses, and leads that led nowhere.
The 1960s arrived, and then the 1970s. My body was aging, my hair graying, but my determination remained unwavering. I didn't want to die without knowing it. I refused to let my son fade into oblivion, as if his existence had never mattered. In 1972, a promising lead finally emerged. A former Vermarthe administration employee agreed to meet with me.
He lived in a nursing home in Strasbourg, plagued by illness and guilt. When I entered his room, I saw an emaciated old man with dark circles under his eyes and trembling hands. He stared at me for a long time before speaking. "Are you Maéise, the one on the rock?" "Yes." "Sit down." I sat down. My heart was pounding so hard I was afraid she could hear it.
"I remember the Adler family," she said slowly. "They were privileged and close to the regime. During the war, they took in several children, children from special aid programs." I clenched my fists to steady my tremors. Where are they now? After the war, they left for Austria, probably Salzburg, but I don't know for sure.
He gave me the name of a street, a neighborhood. It was more than I'd learned in 29 years. I thanked him. He looked away, unable to meet my gaze. The next month, I left for Salzburg. I was 18. My hair was almost completely gray. My hands trembled constantly from arthritis. My knees ached with every step. But I went.
The train ride took hours. I watched the landscapes pass by: mountains, forests, villages. I thought about all those lost years, all the time my son had spent growing up without me, somewhere, perhaps hundreds of kilometers away. Did he look like me? Did he inherit my eyes, my lips? Did he know he was adopted? Had someone told him about me? I found an eagle in the Salzburg phone book.
Hans Adler. I jotted down the address in my old notebook, where I'd written hundreds of names over the years. Then I headed home as if I were about to fall into a ravine, knowing full well I would. It was a well-kept, middle-class house with a flower garden. Roses clung to the facade. A child's swing hung on a thick chain.
Everything seemed normal. A quiet life, a quiet happiness. I rang the bell. The next few seconds seemed endless. Then the door opened. A man in his thirties stood there. Brown hair, dark eyes, deep wrinkles. My heart skipped a beat. It was him. I knew it. My whole being knew it. I recognized something in his face.
A resemblance to my mother, to Séverine, and maybe even to myself. "Yes," he said in German with a hint of impatience. The words caught in my throat. I stared at him, unable to tear my eyes away. I searched for traces of myself, my sisters, my lost family. "Are you all right?" he asked [music], and his voice changed, betraying concern.
"I... I'm looking for someone," I finally managed to say in broken German to the man born in June 1943 and adopted by the Adler family. His expression immediately changed. He paled. Darkness fell in his eyes. He took a step back. Why? I took a deep breath. I summoned all my courage, for I was his mother.
The silence that fell was unbearable. He looked at me as if I were a ghost from his past, haunting him. He gripped the doorframe tighter. His breathing was ragged. Then, slowly and wordlessly, he stepped back and closed the door. I stood frozen on the threshold, my legs trembling, my heart breaking.
I heard voices from inside. A woman asked what was happening, and he replied something I didn't understand. I waited perhaps ten minutes, maybe an hour. Time lost all meaning, but the door didn't open. Finally, I dropped the letter in the mailbox. A letter that explained everything: who I was, [music], what had happened, why I'd come.
I gave him the address of my hotel. Then I went home and cried for three days. He didn't want me. He wanted nothing to do with me. For almost thirty years I'd traveled, crossed borders, saved every penny, followed every lead, and now, when I finally found him, he rejected me. But I couldn't give up. Not now, not after all this.
I returned the next day. I rang the doorbell, but no one answered. I returned the next day. The same result. I left more letters, photos from my youth, a photo of Séverine and Aurore, documents from the camp—everything I'd collected over the years. On the fifth try, he opened the door. [Music] He looked exhausted, with deep shadows under his eyes.
His face was impassive. "What do you want from me?" he asked. His voice was broken, almost pleading. "Nothing," I replied quietly. "I don't want anything from you." I just wanted to tell you that I wanted you, that I never left you, that we were separated, that I haven't stopped thinking about you for a single day in my life.
He closed his eyes. A tear rolled down his cheek. They told me my mother died in the war, that I was an orphan, that my biological parents were killed in a bombing. "I know," I whispered. "I know what they told you." They lied to me. His voice shook with anger and pain. "Yes," he said, opening his eyes and looking at me, truly looking at me for the first time.
“What's your name, Maéis?” She nodded slowly, as if memorizing every syllable. My name is Mathias, and for the first time in 29 years, I heard my son's name. Mathias and I had never been close. How could we be? I was a stranger to him. He was a man whose life was built on a lie, a lie I had destroyed. We met several times after that first meeting.
Polite coffee breaks, timid conversations. He asked me questions about Aurore and Séverine, about von Steiner. I answered honestly, even though it hurt. One day he asked, “Did you love me?” “A little.” I looked at this thirty-year-old man, this stranger who was my son, and told him the truth. I loved you from the first moment I felt you inside me, and when they took you away, a part of me died.
I've been looking for you my whole life. Yes, Mathias, I loved you. I still love you. He cried. I did too. But love alone isn't always enough to heal wounds. Mathias had his own family, a wife, two children, a life completely different from mine. I couldn't demand a place in his life. And I didn't want to. I just wanted him to know.
We corresponded for several years. Then the letters became less frequent, and the music stopped. In 2005, I learned from his obituary that he had died of cancer. He was sixty years old. Despite this, I wasn't invited to the funeral. I stayed at the back of the church, discreetly, unobtrusively. I saw his children cry, his wife break down, and then I understood.
My son had lived a life, a real life, despite everything, despite Funsteiner, despite the camp, despite me. And maybe that was enough. When I gave this interview for the "Historical Memory" project in 2010, I was six years old. I was physically exhausted, my voice hoarse, but my mind was still clear. They asked me if I had any regrets. I answered no.
Not because I was looking for Mathias, not because I knocked on his door, not because I told the truth, but because silence also kills, and some stories cannot be buried. Von Steiner was never brought to justice. The children born in that camp were never officially registered. Women like me never received recognition, an apology, or compensation.
We were simply erased. But as long as there is someone to tell our story, we will live on. I died five years after that interview, in 2015. I was 91 years old. I was alone, as I have been for almost my entire life. But my words remain. And today, decades later, thousands of people hear my story.
Perhaps among them is a woman who recognizes something, a familiar pain, a silence she carries within. If so, I want to tell her: your story matters. Your pain is real, and you are not alone. The world has tried to erase us, but we are still here, in every will, in every precious memory, in every person who refuses to forget.
This was my story, Maéis du Rock's story, the story of three sisters who survived the unimaginable. And now it is yours too, because as long as you remember, we will live. This story doesn't belong to Maéis du Rock alone; it is the story of thousands of women whose names have been erased from history. Women who bear the scars of a war they did not choose.
Mothers whose children were taken from them before they could even feel them. Survivors who had to learn to live with an unbearable void. While Maéis searched for her son for twenty years, the world spun. War memorials were unveiled, official speeches were delivered, and heroes were honored, but she, like so many others, remained in the shadows because her story was disturbing, because it reminded us that war does not end with the silence of arms.
It lives on in bodies, in memories, in the silence that endures from generation to generation. Today, years after the end of World War II, we have a duty to remember not only the battles and treaties, but also women like Maéis, Aurore, and Séverine. Children like Mathias, deprived of their stories, truths suppressed because they disrupted the established order.
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Together, we are building a collective memory that will not allow the stories of these women to be silenced. Maéis died in 2015 at the age of 91, but her words remain. Her courage in breaking her silence after so many years paved the way for other testimonies, other truths long hidden. She showed that it is never too late to tell a story, never too late to search, never too late to fight against oblivion.
Today, in her honor, in honor of all these forgotten women, ask yourselves this question: what story do you carry within you, a story that deserves to be heard, perhaps waiting for someone in your community to finally listen?
